Below are the 20 most recent journal entries recorded in cody_nm's LiveJournal:

Wednesday, January 12th, 2005
4:58 pm	? hi Current Mood: crappy Current Music: who cares (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, October 15th, 2004
7:10 pm	weird feelings ya ya ya what ever i a in a really sad mood, for reasons that are my own fucking busness you nosy bitch...FUCK YOU...I FUCKING HATE YOU... now go pleasure your self with what ever same sex sights you go to..............fuck you. Current Mood: dirty Current Music: FUCK YOU (Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 25th, 2004
6:57 pm	soccer today was the first day of soccer and i kicked ass if i do say so my self. Current Mood: lonely (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 24th, 2004
5:35 pm	woried hey, sorry i have not ritten in a very long time i was to busy with my summer and you people need to get a life, so anyway. i have a fun summer blah blah, but school started now and i can only see jen on the weekends and only some weekends at that. but i get to talk to her for a hour or two on the phone each night most of the time. but this whole not seeing echother is kicking my ass, i am really woried, that we might grow appart. or she might find some hot/ smart guy at school, or w/e, and after school she has horese back riding, doctor once a week witch i do not approve of, but she does so w/e, she has a tuter for pree cal now so when she does get home she is so tierd, that she just wants to go to bed and do the same thing the next day. so my fear is actualy kindda comming true.. sigh..i have school hw and soccer..so.. and her parents are making me mad cuz they wont let me spend the night even if i sleep in a diffrent room.. but it is also her she is to shy to ask wich i can understand cuz she is affrade that they will say no. but she hast to,.. what els has been on my mind.. ah yes i have had a ruff weekend undiscloed reasons, so dont fuck with me. oh yeah i had to pee alot at jens house, i dont know why, i think it might have been a change of diet after the summer but like efery 5 min i had to pee but like nothing cane out, now i dont want to let you all in on more you want to know about me, but that was weird, but i am ok now, whew. i like the scedual for school it makes the day seem to go fast. ok so david i have three things to say to you #1, i still want your cell phone. #2, keep writing. #3, i am le dieing, hehe. jen i have two things to say to you #1, i love you with all my heart. #2 i miss you. and all of you who are reading this pleas comment, even if you just say a randome sonthing, somting with meaning, or somthing stupid. because i want to see how maney people are reading my journal, thanks, oh call me i am boers my nomber is 344-1056. bye Current Mood: annoyed Current Music: stair way to heaven- led zeplen (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, July 16th, 2004
10:00 am	i am confused hok so, jen told me the other night that if i wanted to break up with her she would be fine with it.... that scard the living shit out of me. I mean what is that suposed to mean. she wouldent have even brought it up if she hadent been thinking about it. so maby the real think is that she wants to break up with me, cuz she finaly sees that i am not the beas bf. but she dosent have enuf guts to do it her self, so she is hoping that if she puts the idea in my mind i will do it for her. but i wont i love her too much. but if my paranoia is true she will do it her self eventualy. Current Mood: confused Current Music: hurt- nin (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 6th, 2004
5:15 pm	i dont know yesterday i went to a party. and i called jen, when i called her she sounded mad at me. she seemed kinda adutated all last night. i hope she wasent mad at me. but juging by her most reasent entery it seems like she is. Current Mood: crappy (Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 29th, 2004
11:18 am	yeah so i changed my mind i am going to keep wrighting so fuck you. ha. any way i just got back from florida. it was real fun my hole family and i wrented a beach house on capteava island is was so beautiful. it was 102 and 94% humididy but i was in the water the whole time any way. i missed jen so much. Current Mood: chipper Current Music: she- greenday (Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 16th, 2004
9:04 pm	i think i am going to stop writeing in my journal because no one reades it any way. humm kind of like my appinyons and actions. no one cares. Current Mood: envious Current Music: fuck you (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, June 14th, 2004
11:48 am	last night last night me and jen went to a party. i had a good time, neer the end of it. the begining was me and our friends kellen and nick played pool, 1 game. when it was over i notised that jen had left, so went looking for her. she was sitting with my parents and a few of my parents friends, talking about france and sucitacated stuff that i have no idea about (cuz i am dumb) so i sat threw that with out saying a word. then she got up and started petting the dogs and talking to a old man. i thought " fuck the dogs and the old people are getting more attenshion then me. so i left and tryed to find kellen and nick, but found out they had diched me. so i went and played 3 or 4 rounds or quroque by my self. AND I DONT EVEN KNOW HOW TO PLAY!!!. i just wanted to go home by this point, really bad then i went and found jen who was hanging out and playing pool with my sistre and her friends. so i sat around there for a bit , then they decided to go swiming. i thought og good jen cant go she dosent have a bathing seut. so i left hoping that she would fallow. but no apperintly waching my sister and her friends swim in the pond was more fun. so i desided to go swiming my self. feeling really bad that jen couldent come in too. but my dad let her use his and she went in with her T shirt and trunks. then we played around in there for a hour or two. then it got better we ate dinner, and after that we went in to a really hot hot tub we were alone that was fun then we wached fire works on a balcany alone too.... oh well the end made up for it. Current Mood: confused Current Music: look at us baby (Comment on this)
Saturday, June 12th, 2004
10:17 pm	the little things today was a really bad day. i just see little things that piss me off and i saw a lot of them today. i am not going to say any because they are petty. and might get some one love very much mad at me. Current Mood: aggravated (Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 2nd, 2004
8:41 pm	god damn god damn i hat beeing so stupid. i try do be smart i doo ok in school, i dont go to prep *sigh* maby that is why. jen said she wont date a stupid guy, and some how she ends up with the bigest dumb ass. i just want to be what she wants. now exuse me while i wallow in my own self pitty. Current Mood: stressed (Comment on this)
8:33 pm	work i started work today it is fun it is from 8-5 a 8 hour day at N.W. automotive.........i hope jen can work at dans then we will be really close. Current Mood: crushed Current Music: try and save me self but my self keeps slipping away-nin (Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 26th, 2004
9:36 pm	hi HI EVERYBODY!!!!! Current Mood: crazy Current Music: big fat jucey booty....hahahahaha (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, May 23rd, 2004
11:23 pm	thinking yeah hi. i ... yeah i dont know i was just thinking this morning in bed, and i just but a lot of things to gether that freeked me out. on friday she was suposed to go to the movies with her friend nat. and i asked her why she dressed all sexy she said nat wanted her to, i asked why and she because of boys. and the day befor that we were out at dinner with her mom and mine and my sis. we started talking about how jen drives me every where cuz i dont have my lisence yet, and she said she was sick of driving me places, that made me feel guilty and sad, but you know i am sorry i am two months two young to get my lisence. and then today i found out that she still talk to that andrew kid some times and that he called her at 1 last night. that made me mad. i know i am beeing parinoied but.... it kinda scares me. Current Mood: confused Current Music: hello tomarrow (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, May 22nd, 2004
9:57 am	school is out hi i dont have nuch to talk about, exept i love jen and school is out and i start my new job on monday........yep that is it bye. Current Mood: awake Current Music: slow song- catch 22 (Comment on this)
Friday, May 14th, 2004
7:17 pm	hummmm... i am so tierd.... i have soccer practus every monday and thursday, but this week i had 3 games last weekend, soccer practis on monday, tusday i had off, wed i went to my game for state wich started at 7:30pm and today, thirsday i had practus. tomarrow i will have off. but i have two games this weekend, and on monday i am scrimaging the top U 17 girls team in the state ( the cats ) and then i am off till thirday.... i hope... the that weekend i have the FRIT... wich is a 4 game soccer turniment in colarado springs...... i am going to feel so guilty when we play the girls team.... i like wont be able to even knock the off the ball! Current Mood: busy (Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 11th, 2004
8:07 pm	WOW hi sorry i dont have any enterys for a bit..... nope i dont care... so.... yes this friday jen and i liade in the grass, and she told me some things that were committing to me.... and i said thm back... but i was not afrade i really love this girl. and when i am around her i am the happest pirson in the word... i cant waigh till i am 18... gee.... well i am going to go... do......STUFF!!! bye (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, May 2nd, 2004
12:11 pm	i dont know yeah jen came over last night... i had a lot of fun... and i said i would call her when i got up. so i did but her mom was gone. she said she would be bad in about 45 minuts, so she could come over. here i am 3 hours later and he mom is not even home yet. and i have been informed the she has a nother party to go to. so it looks like this will be the therd sat in a row that i get to see her only around 2 hours. i really hope that her momm will let her hang out for a little longer tomarrow....I want to go do somthing, but if i do she will feel like i am getting sick of her. like she has alot already. but for the last few days i have been the one feeling that she is getting sick of hanging around with me *sigh*.. well next week is the prom, maby she will be able to go to that. (Comment on this)
Friday, April 30th, 2004
4:15 pm	the last few weeks i have had the worsed last few weeks. the first thing that happend is that i found out that a old friend of the familys died i knew him real well, he was like one of the major mail figeurs in my life and like a 2 dad. then that same night i found out that my cosens house burned down. then i was talking to Jen and found out that she had a horse show so i couldent really see her much that weekend, but i was happy for her. but she had a b day party that sat after the show. and sat is out day to see echother because we go to difrent schools. so all we have is friday night, saterday, and sunday wich her cerfew is really early, so i was sad. then that thersday i went to the funaral of my friend... i have been to way to many funarls. so sat rolls around and we louse our soccer game. then i go home and am really boerd. then jen calls because her hores show ran laight. but she would only stay at the party like 10/ 15 min, so i felt bad , i kindda felt selfish. so when she did come over we got to "wach" half of a mivie and she had to leave. then this hole thing with drew and me and she is just stuck in the middle, wich is not right, and to top it all of my knee hurts like a bitch. i keep telling my self it can only get better.. right?... well it dosent... hopfully it will soon. (Comment on this)
Thursday, April 29th, 2004
8:18 pm	in general well every body this is my first entery, so i guess i will tell you what happend today. my gf jen wich i love very much has a friend in calli, him name is andrew. and i really dont like him, wich i sbad cuz i dont know him. but all i have heard well lets see. he wants me and jen to break up, he is deprest alot i hear so i really dont him to depress or even bother her with his probles, he ither makes him mad or sad, calls her all the time the other night he called her at 3am, he has a crush on jen. and jen beeing the kind loving sole she is just keeps helping himor w/e and ... i just feel like he is using her or somthing. and i dont know what to do so today i had a huge blow up and i left. i came back and she had IMed me and said fine i will tell him not to talk to me agen. wich would make me both the happyest and the sadest man in the world at the same time.. i feel like a big dick but i am just trying to protect my love of my life..i dont know what to do :( Current Mood: depressed (Comment on this)